External Expectations, Internal Validation

 

I feel fulfillment in the midst of a lot going on outside of my immediate agency externally. If I were to play the "metrics game" and fully succumb to psychosoma(n)tics I'd give up right now lol; somehow though yesterday, with two (2) 1.5 hr REM naps in past 24hrs, I managed muscle up on rings (see video), two 7Bs and a 7A+ flash on TB1. Mood follows Action.

I'm in a good place intuition wise. I'm proud of this. Going into session, I knew I didn't feel great; snappiness wasn't there, felt achey and sensitive musculosketal and nervous system, I felt trace fogginess... I knew it wasn't going to be limit session and I was okay with that. In giving myself permission to not perform, I inadvertently opened that possibility. I was patient, non attached to any eventuality, even ending session and packing out. 

Expectations are high right now externally. What further climbs am I capable of with time left before TB1 wall comes down? Will I maintain fitness level given demands of parenting ? Can I push myself given work demands increasing and sleep constraints? Is it possible I improve my dedication to being a good partner, father, and climber or does one always need to be sacrificed?

Answer is Yes. I am capable of future climbs on the TB1 ... will it be PRISM, NEW FREEZER, BENCH 1, LOW CRAB DIET, JEPH LOEB, MAJOR INTERRUPTOR, LUCIFER, HYPOTHENAR, LIONESS etc.,  who cares... time will tell. 

I will arrive at entire process rather than contort my convictions and sense of completion on mere outcome

If the joy I permit myself just with what I've climbed (past tense), do I really enjoy the climbing (present tense)? Carrying this internal logic to next external questions: fitness ebbs and flows, enjoy it. Yes I will experience changes given demands of parenting... whatever level I'm at, I will meet it (don't let it be your undoing)

7 RPE is 7 RPE

Becoming a newborn parent again is a rare opportunity, being a supportive partner and pushing oneself is too. We each have one (1) precious temple and life to share build and explore. I view more and more chapters of gratitude to focus on and spheres of influence rather than sacrifices and sadness.

Choose radness.

N¹M